you're everything I need

Sunday, November 23, 2008 6:42 PM

I just hope one day you see me, & your heart stops.

How could you walk away form me? When i reached out for you in need. Boy my heart was on the line. I didn't mean to waste your time. Was i just another girl? You pretended was your world? Well its too late to turn around cause your just a face in the crowd.

There is no distance on this earth as far away as yesterday.
-Robert Nathan

Not everything is meant to be understood

It's difficult for people to get rid of junk.
They get attached to things and let
them define who they are. If there's
one thing I've learned in this business,
it's that you are what you can't let go of

Trust is a tricky thing.
Sometimes you have to give it up,
sometimes you have to let it be broken.
but there's no reason why you shouldn't use it again

don't dwell on the past. your history can't be erased, but
your future has yet to be written. make the most of what's
going to happen instead of worrying about what you can't
change. don't waste your time being sad, because you're
wasting away moments in which you could be happy.

Don't cry for what might have been; don't live in the past. It was supposed to be forever; well forever never lasts. Lift your head and dry your tears, forget about yesterday. We had the time of our life, but we must move on. Let it fade away

I am grateful that somehow we are made, in the most trying of times,
to just block out everything and keep going,
even when you have no idea what to do or how it will all work out.
There is such a fine, thin edge between life and death,
and I'm also grateful that we're able to forget about that,
for the most part, in our day to day lives.
~Sarah Dessen~

In the end, it's the "what if"'s that hurt the most. Like, what if things had gone a little differently? Me? I don't believe in fate. I believe we have more control then we think and every action has a reaction.
-Scrubs.

"I'm not allowed to fall in love," she said.
"I'm not allowed to care this much."
But when you're staying up late,
hoping to god he's tossing and turning,
thinking of you, it's too late already.

it's taken me awhile, but i'm learning
that letting go of the past is a good thing.
it doesn't mean forgetting, it just means
moving on. and you can't enjoy the present
when you're stuck in the past

Most people are stronger than they know
They just don't believe in themselves

Sometimes you have to just forgive someone
because you can't stand not having
them in your life.

Whenever a memory pops into your head,

you always have to wonder

how many more times will I be able to remember that?

Will I ever remember that again?

How many times can you revisit a memory?

Hello again, seems like forever between now and then
You look the same.
I mean, you look different but you haven't changed

That was the day I stopped believing in love.
That kind of love.
The love in books and films.
The love that tells us to abandon our lives and plans,
all for one brief touch of Venus.
So often we fail at that kind of love.
The world just seems too fragile a place for it.
Perhaps it's just that we are too fragile

And by the time our generation hits the age of 50,
we're all going to be deaf. The funny thing
is nobody even cares. For the truth is, we blast
our music to drown out today's psychotic society

The static whisper in my ear,
but in a moment your voice was clear.
"I need some time," you said to me.
That's when I knew you were gonna make me lonely.
I walk awhile before I sleep, count the secrets that I keep.
I hope for more, I know for sure I fall apart before I weep.
I disconnect the telephone, cause I can choose to be alone.
I'll get more done, I'll have some fun,
pretend you're not the only one.

But the world can spin so madly,
and love can hurt so badly.
and stories end so sadly.
but this is not the end.

you hit me like a shot of whiskey,
you got me walking sideways,
tunnel vision feeling frisky,
want to get you stuck on replay.

another drink or three,
jack daniels is the only friend i've got tonight,
don't blame it all on me,
it seems wrong to end this with another fight,
can you just hold it back?
save the worst for last?

I remember when I was love sick.
You block out everyone.
You feel so tired, because you haven't slept in forever.
You know that he'll be in your dreams,
but you don't want to stay awake laying in your bed crying either.
You're starving, but you can't eat because you're starving for him
and every memory just leaves you a bigger hole in your heart.
Even your clothes remind you of him what you wore when you hung out.
You can still smell him all over them,
even though his scent hasn't been there for long.
You wish his scent would be stuck on you,
but you know you'd be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you.
You're online, he signs on, and you want to yell at him to go away,
but you just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything,
but then he signs off, and you tear yourself apart for not saying anything to him.
You stop talking to your friends,
and they get worried and try comforting you,
but they just make you feel worse because they think they know,
but they don't have a damn clue
__++ this one is sooo true.

I loved you. And here's a news flash.
you protected me from nothing. I spent a long
time missing you, wondering what the hell
I did wrong to make you do that to me.
I thought everything was my fault. And even
when I got over that, I still knew what
I'd lost: you. You were the one who
made me laugh when I had a crappy day.
You were the one I vented to when I was
mad, the one I shared all the good stuff with.
You always knew when I was full of crap,
and you always called me on it. You were smart,
you were funny, you were good-looking.
You were mine. And then, suddenly,
you weren't. I knew every day exactly what I'd
lost, and I missed you every day, and I
believed in you every day, and my heart broke
every day. That's the big favor you did for me.
Thanks so much. Here's the kicker.
You weren't even protecting me. You were
protecting yourself. If you'd given half a
thought to me, you would have said goodbye.

I miss you more than I thought I would.
It`s weird how I didn`t appreciate your good mornings everyday,
or the way you always managed to make me smile,
even if I was mad at you

I can honestly say I don't want to forget you.

But I can't forgive you this time.

So I'm gonna go with my head held high,

and the memories left behind.

But I'll still hold a piece of you.

what do you think of when you're with me?

do you feel nervous or miss me at all?

or wonder how i am doing?

whats going through your mind?

i want to know cause i cant decide

how i feel when i am around you.

all i know is that you can make

me smile like no one else.

I used to think I needed you in my life.

I used to think you were the only one

who could make me happy.

But I was wrong. I was so wrapped

up in you that I almost forgot:

I survived without you before.

And I still can, it's just a matter

of getting used to the idea.

~ you're everything I need

Thursday, November 13, 2008 6:31 AM

****~****

Tell me excatly how you feel, because im not quite sure i understand. One day you love me, the next your dumbing me. Was i just not good enough? was she better? what could ever make you want to do that to me?After all the promises you made, after I believed you. Tell me...why??

****~****

I know excatly how it is to love somebody who doesnt deserve it, because they're all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. This is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would and you befriend the people you used to hate. You'll learn what its like to have your heart broken, to loose a friend that truly ment something to you & to feel as if everything is falling apart.

****~****

I cannot even imagine where i would be today where it not for that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. Lets face it, friends make life a lot more fun. I care about people, I help people out. I am a very compassionate person. So why does my life continue to come crashing down on me? I dont deserve it, i really dont. I try and change my fate. But it doesnt matter.

****~****

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

<3>

~ you're everything I need

Thursday, November 6, 2008 6:26 AM

Oo1.
So they'd lock themselves in the carAnd get lost in each other's eyes.They sang along with the radio.He'd whisper in her ear & she'd laughAt his silly jokes, even if they were pointless.He'd grab her hand and not let go.He had no idea how happy it made her.She'd rest her head on his shoulder; close her eyes,Listening to their song as he kissed her forehead.She memorized the touch of his lips.She didn't want to leave anytime soon.& he'd give her his jacket when she was cold.It'd be 3 in the morning, but they would stillBe tangled up in each other.She knew he was something special.It was different how he moved her.Because when he told her, "Goodnight"It felt like, "Hello."

Oo2.
yesterday i saw the sun shining,and the leaves were falling down softly.my hands were cold and needed a warm touch,and i was thinking about you.

Oo3.
I'm sinking slowly So hurry hold me Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on Please can you tell me So I can finally see Where you go when you're gone

Oo4.
I still wish you would call.Not to go do anything, just to talk.I miss hearing your voice every night.I miss you making me smile.

Oo5.
I do believe it's trueThat there are roads left in both of our shoesBut if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too.

Oo6.
"love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."-Luke 6:27-28

Oo7.
"people can call it passion. or lust. or obsession. i don't really care. when i'm with him, it's the only time i feel completely alive. if you've never felt the power of that, then i feel sorry for you."-The A-list

Oo8.
I believe that you're always here with meYou're everywhere but still within my reachCause how could you save the dayif you're a million miles away?

Oo9.
Don't walk away from this,it's on your fingertips,babe you can't denythere's something there.Tell me how you feel about me.

O1o.
Everybody tells you that they live for a meaning.Did I ever mention that the meaning was you?

~ you're everything I need

6:24 AM

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.

I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say I make you feel a way you've never felt before, and I'm all you need and that you never want more.And we'll say all of the right things without a clue, and you'll be the one for me and me the one for you.
"You're my world," he said to her , as she cried on his shoulder that one night.And it's then that she knew that he was unforgettable and it was impossible for them to just be friends.

It's the way you thrill me, then pull away. The way you seem to kill me a little more each day. And it's what you're thinking, in your twisted mind, the way your body trembles, when it's next to mine.
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it at the time.You're the only thing that I love, scares me more everyday.On my knees, I think clearer.

I'm holding on, but letting go of you.
So if you made it, just be glad that you did and stay there.If you ever feel loved or needed, remember that you're one of the lucky ones.

You, if I never had you then I wouldn't feel the way I do now.It was just a joke you said, but now i'm warning you,on whose ground do you dare to tread when all your plans fall through?
I'm sending you away tonight, I'll put you on a bird's strong wing.I'm saving you the best I know how.I hope again to one day hear you sing.

To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.

~ you're everything I need