"everything you can imagine is real."
-pablo picasso-

"so it's not gonna be easy. it's gonna be really hard. we're gonna have to work at this every day, but i want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. will you do something for me, please? just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? what's it look like? if it's with him, go. go! i lost you once, i think i can do it again. if i thought that's what you really wanted. but don't you take the easy way out."
-the notebook-

the rainy nights hurt the most
the ones when i can just see you holding her close
in the bed we used to share

"love cannot save you from your own fate"
-jim morrison-

i thought it'd be easy
but no one believes me
i meant all the things i said

so one last touch and then you'll go
and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
but it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

i can hear it in your voice, you care
let me run my fingers through your hair
i'll keep you company at night
and baby i'm here to make this right

my flatlined inhibition is my ammunition
i'm just fighting to get by
just give me some direction
i'll be your affection
how could you leave me behind

"your heart breaks, that's all. but you can't judge or point fingers. you just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."
-audrey hepburn-

"listen to me. we all have moments of desperation. but if we face them head on, that's when we find out just how really strong we are."
-desperate housewives-

and that's why i'm wondering why you had to tell me
what's going on in your head, what's wrong
come around to another time when you don't have to run
and when he says he wants somebody else
i hope you know he doesn't mean you
and when he breaks down and lets you down
you never hear him the way that i do


when the light turns green, you go
when the light turns red, you stop
but what do you do when the light turns blue with orange and lavender spots?
-shel silverstein-

you've been asking me to bleed
it seems these kinds of questions
come too easy to you now
your lack of shame comes naturally
i should not be suprised
i should have seen it sooner

and i know that you hope for
longer goodbyes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes

making up a history
it's nothing from the life you lead
but man will they buy all your lines

"some love stories aren't epic novels, some are short stories. but that doesn't make them any less filled with love."
-sex and the city, the movie-

well sooner or later this cold
it's gonna break
so our hands will be warm again
but all i want is not to need you now

please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that i feel that i might break
out of touch, out of time
please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause i can't read your rolling eyes
out of touch, are we out of time?

the harder i push the farther i fall
well you don't mind me being headstrong
but you don't want to sing along

and i had a vision of seeing things straight
she had the heart of a liar
i never saw her leaving me once
she never felt me beside her

"when i fell to the floor tonight, i was so scared, i was so terrified. then i saw you, and i promised myself that if i could just get up, i'd walk over to you. i'd tell you how much i need you and how much i want you. and how nothing else matters."
-one tree hill-

the truth #6:
you are the only thing in my life that i cannot defend myself against.

1
you built me up. made me feel so special.
then you dropped me in a heart beat.
left me shattered, but i will not let it show.
i will NOT let you know.
2
I wish that I could make you understand
that I'm not angry with you. A little bitter,
maybe, and clearly still heartbroken.
but darling, I could never hate you.
3
I have this fear that one day
you'll finally get a good look
at me & I'm going to disappoint
you cause you'll see that I'm not
as strong or as good as you
think I am. & I'm afraid that it
will change the way you think about me.
4
Because he has been a major part of your life,
of course you'll miss him; it's perfectly normal.
It's like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist
pulls it out you're relieved. But how many times
does your tongue run itself over the spot where
the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day.
Just because it was hurting you does not mean
you don't notice it. It leaves a gap, & sometimes
you see yourself missing it terribly. It's going to take
awhile, but it takes time. Should you have kept the
tooth? No, because it was causing you pain.
Pulling the tooth was the right decision,
but it's going to hurt.
5
Oh yes, the past can hurt,
but the way i see it-
you can either run from it,
or learn from it.
6
You find out who your friends are,
Somebody who'll drop everything,
Run out and crank up their car,
Hit the gas, get there fast.
Never stop to think "What's in it for me,"
Or "That's way too far."
Yeah you find out who your friends are.
7
We were so in love and perfect,
but just like the colors of the blue sky
fading gray, our world is slowly fading away
8
Sometimes I wish you'd pay
more attention to my favorite
songs, because the lyrics sing
words I'm too scared to say.
9
My fingertips are holding onto
the cracks of our foundation,
and I know I should let go,
but I can't
10
Even after I've left, I can still feel
your arms wrapped around me.
and you know, I'll remember that
feeling for the rest of my life.
11
Love's like a butterfly, if
you chase it, it'll fly away.
But if you wait patiently it
will land on you when
you least expect it
12
i haven't forgotten about him,
or about that night. but there
are too many good things
going on right now, for me
to linger in the past. fate will
take care of everything. if we
were meant to have another
night like that, we will.
<3333
13
There are just certain things in life
that are better off unknown;
things you wish you never asked,
never saw, never heard or never even felt.
14
Maybe I could have loved you better.
Maybe you should have loved me more.
Maybe our hearts were just next in line.
Maybe everything breaks sometimes.
15
We spend half our life sleeping,
but we spend our whole life waiting.
Waiting in lines, waiting for times
waiting to be old enough,
waiting for a call. We're always waiting.
We just dont always realize it.
Waiting for someone to say something,
waiting for them to notice you.
Constently waiting for that one
person, and they have no idea
you're waiting for them.
*txtxl*
16
to offer a girl friendship when love is in her heart
is like giving a loaf of bread
to one who’s dying of thirst
<3333
17
sometimes, your closest friends end up
hurting you more than your
worst enemies ever could
18
sometimes I still stare at you, amazed and
absolutely enchanted, and even though I’ve
held your gaze a thousand times, when you
turn to me and give me that silly grin of
yours, you still make me blush
19
and all these little girls are striving too hard
to be perfect because they already know
that you have to be perfect to survive
20
trust your friends when they say
"this one's trouble" because they
can see things that you refuse to
:)
21
Love is like a booger.
You keep picking at it
until you get it, then
wonder what to do with it
22
He was a part of
her dreams. And
she wasn't even a
part of his world
23
The only way to accept an insult is to ignore it.
If you can't ignore it, top it. If you can't top it, laugh at it.
If you can't laugh at it, you probably deserved it
24
&& i would love to not answer the phone
i would love to not respond to a text
just to give a taste of your own medicine
but i love our conversations too much
to just ignore you.
*txtxl*
25
you'll always be my best friend;
you know too much :)
26
Your picture is up on my wall.
It's not even a good picture of you.
I've seen better looking boys,
but there's just something about that smile
on your face that makes my eyes fill with tears.
I've always loved that smile
27
Never think, "what if". Everything happens for a reason
and when things don't work out, shake it off.
Realize it wasn't worth it like you thought it was
because you were worth it, but he didn't realize it
28
Remember last summer, when we were
bored out of our minds, had no idea what day
it was, and still had the time of our lives?
Yeah, those were the days

29
Here's to the nights we'd kill to get back,
The moments that haunt our dreams.
Here's to the people forever loved,
Who make our hearts want to scream.
30
And it makes me sad
when I go to romantic
comedies; because I see
all the couples cuddling
and laughing together
and then there I am,
alone with my popcorn

31
All she wants is one guy
who isn't afraid to say
"Yeah, I love you, what are
you going to do about it?"
32
& maybe this year
you can ask Santa
for some originality

33
You know me too well.
When I said I didn`t love you,
you looked at me & said,
"Bullshit, you`re just running away."
34
He asked me if I was alright, and shocked;
I looked him him. "After ignoring me, you
ripped out my heart, threw it on the ground,
and jumped on it several times. Yeah; I'm
alright, dumbass.
35
when things happen in real life,
extraordinary things,
there's no music,
there's no dah-dah-daaahhs,
there's no close ups,
no dramatic camera angles.
nothing happens. nothings stops,
the rest of the world goes on.

36
there will be 2 dates on your tombstone
everyone will read them, but the only thing
that matters is the little dash between them

37
& she asked him "What
kind of wedding do you
want?" and he replied.
"The kind that would
make you my wife."

38
Being brokenhearted
is like having broken ribs.
On the outside it looks
like nothing is wrong,
but every breath hurt
39
He`ll only break your heart, it`s a fact.
& even though I warn you, even though I
guarantee you that the boy will only hurt
you terribly, you`ll still pursue him,
ain`t love grand?

40
My boy toy is better
than yours, so back
off, sweet cheeks
41
Good girls are made of
sugar and spice. But I'm
a bad girl & I'm made
of whip cream and ice
42
You're my Noah
Calhoun; not just
a summer fling,
but a lifetime love

He knew that it would take more than an apology to get you back. He'd have to conquer the world first. He's been trying ever since.- Sweet Home Alabama - I just want to thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heartfor all those sleepless nights, and for tearing me apart.- Long Way to Happy ; P!nk - It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.- Harry Potter -

every time I think about you,I have to remind myself thatif you wanted to talk to me, you would I can let you go, I will let you go.Not because I want to, but becauseI need to. why do you think this is so easy for me. goodbyes are never easy.but this is it, you've reached the ninth inning, you've struck out. you've lost

This is to those nights when you dealt with more drama than you wanted to cause you're a nice person. To the nights that you drank too much and made mistakes that no one forgot for months and months. this is to the nights that you hooked up with a guy, feeling used and alone after. To the nights you would have rather sat at home watching a movie, but instead got dressed up in clothes that weren't comfortable as your sweatpants, went to a party that you didn't really want to be at to find the boy you like there with some other girl. To the nights that you can't wait until everyone grows up, cause you're tired of everyone around you judging you. To those nights, that unfortunatly come too often. I'm thinking that it might actually be possiblefor things to work out sometimes.Definitely not everything andmaybe not the way you imagined.But sometimes, when you least expect it,life surprises you “I’m exactly right for you. It would have been effortless for us.Comfortable. Easy as breathing," he whispered to me.I could see what he saw and I knew he was right.If the world was the sane place it was supposed to behe and I would have been together.And we would have been happy."

it's there. i know it is.because when i lookat you, i can feel it.- finding nemo - I wish you'd give me some kind of sign that you feel the same. Anything, really, just something to let me know I should still hold onto the idea of us. As it is, as much as I don't want to, I'm close to letting go. it's not what i feel for you, it'swhat i don't feel for anyone but you.

Here’s to the nights when I didn’t know left from right.And you were there showing me, not telling me.Here’s to the nights that went on into early in the morningAnd yet we were still pouring vodka into plastic cups.Here’s to the phone calls that you took,Even if they were at 4am.Here’s to the nights were we took long walks around just to talkAnd never got tired of walking.Here’s to the nights when even if I was doing something wrongWith someone I wasn’t suppose to be with, you were still there defending me.Here’s to the nights when I knew you were still gonna be there in the morning, hung over and laughing about the nights memories.Here’s to being my best friend Just because you were happy with him doesnt mean you can't be happy without him. Yeah, right. Let me tell you something, okay? Where I'm from, having a dream doesn't make you smart. Knowing it won't come true? That does. ( The O.C. )

Because sometimes you have something you need to say, but you can't because the words won't come out, or you get scared, or you feel stupid. But if you could write a song and sing it, then you could say what you needed to say, and it would be beautiful, and people would listen, and you wouldn't make a complete idiot out of yourself. But all of us can't be song writers, so some of us will never get the chance to say what we're thinking, or what we want other people to know that we're thinking, so we'll never get the chance to make things right again ever... ( Gilmore Girls ) And no matter how long you try to be good, you can't keep a bad girl down. ( Gossip Girl ) The butterflies never seem to accompany the right people, you know? The nice guys who are right for you, they never seem to make your stomach flip-flop. ( Dawson's Creek )

When we first met, I didn't want to get involved with anyone. I didn't have the time or the energy, and I wasn't sure I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that, and little by little I found myself falling in love with you.( The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks ) There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.( The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen ) He knew he made a mistakeyou could see it in his eyes.Everytime she walks into the roomhe wishes he hadn't done that to her.He broke her. &&now she'llnever be the same.

You're in love with the feeling you get when I utter your name. Imagine what would happen if I beat you at your own game. Before I make any promises,before you have regrets,before we talk commitment,let me tell you of my past.All I've seen and all I've done.The things I'd like to forget. It was a moment of WEAKNESS.

Just give me a little more time. A little time to work out these words in my mind. I wish that you could look in my eyes. And see I'm really hurting so deeply inside.
Boy, you're the only light that girl ever saw
"It turns out, you can't save people from themselves."-Scrubs

Listen, today makes it a year Don't you think it's time that you made it clear You gotta get on your dibs Tell me what it ain't or what it is I can handle it I've had it up to here I don't wanna pressure you dear I've sent back to back dudes away from my door Thinking I was looking for Not anymore
No matter how much time goes by you'll never forget the first time he looked at you.
The hardest thing is holding on.Especially when you know he has already let go

"And I've give up forever to touch you, 'cause I know that you feel me somehow. You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't want to go home right now. And all I can taste is this moment, and all I can breathe is your life. 'Cause sooner or later it's over; I just don't want to miss you tonight." - Goo Goo Dolls
It would be nice for another chance, but I still don't know if I would even take it.
When you find everything you've been looking for, I hope your life leads you back to my door. But if it doesn't, stay beautiful
all I hope is that you wish you were here with me.
And as the summer's ending, the cold air will rush your hard heart away.

So your scars fade away, You soaked up the painA better person cause you lived through those daysAnd now you know what it's like to proveYou can overcome anything that gets to you.
when her expression goes blank, and she looks away,its not that she is ignoring you,its that she is trying to hold in the pain.
Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen themOr the amount of time since you've talked.It's about that very moment when you're doing something& wishing they were right there with you.

"it goees away. the feeling..that feeling that you have right now today. that feeling like you can do anything. that clarity it goes away. you go right back to being that coward who cant tell that person how you feel" - Greys Anatomy
"i cant stop. just cant stop seeing him. and its not about the sex. its not. its about that moment afterwards. when the wrold stops. it just feels so safe. so safe. im not ready to give that up" - Greys Anatomy
a part of him will alwaysbe in her smile.

"It was one of those times you feel a sense of loss, even though you didn't have soemthing in the first place. I guess that's what disappointment is -- a sense of loss for something you never had."
The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.
When your throat starts to clench& tingle & your heart gets so warmthe heat travels through your body,when your stomach starts to feelthose unforgiving butterflies thatspark the instant flow of tears. That'sthe worst pain you'll ever feel. Thatis your heart breaking.
I finally realized, people don't change,it just takes longer to see the real them.

at the end of the year, it seems likeeveryone's gonna be gone.&& everyone's going to move on..but even though we may be apart,we're always going to be togetherat heart so let your friends know thatyou'll never let them go.
I know it hurts. I know that. But if you give up now, you may be missing something greater than you could ever have imagined. & no one wants to miss something that will change their life forever. Just keep holding on, & I promise it`ll get better.
When I awoke the sun caught fire to breatheI felt you gone and there I lay in a state of reliefI slept that year as much as I possibly couldAcquiescing to that solace slowly erasing you_<3

it's another summer thunderstormand she's dancing in the rain,trying to wash the pain away.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have;we lose people.But we never forget them.&+ sometimes, it's those memories that give us t h e f a i t h to go on <3
As you look back on all the memories; It makes you start to cry You realize you may never see those people again.

You didn’t calland I didn’t really think you would.But, for some reason, I still had my phoneright next to me.
you gave him your heart & you trusted him to keep it & protect it but he couldn'tand that's why you have to let him go It’s not that I miss you, I just, for some reason, keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment you’re going to man up and tell me all this, then I realize why you haven’t done it yet because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now, and you’re happy.. without me.

so maybe i was wrong in thinking we were meant to be & that we were made for each other. maybe we were never supposed to fall in love the way we did. hell, we probably weren’t even supposed to meet when we did or maybe we shouldn’t have met at all. but i know this much, if we aren’t meant to be i don’t know why i cant seem to come to terms of saying goodbye to you, & if we weren’t supposed to fall in love then it was the most beautiful mistake i’ve ever made, & if i hadn’t have met you i probably wouldn’t be the young woman i am today. i loved you with everything i had in me and I thought you deserved to know how truly amazing you are
The art of being happy lies in the power of extracting happiness from common things. i'm starting to realize that getting lost in your eyes `was the worstmove.

if she wants to dance and drink all night...then theres no1 who can stop her
In my memory I wrote you down in ink. I never wanted to erase your story even with the tragedy it brought.
His heart had been broken. And now all these years later, it seemed to him that the most horrible fact of human existance was that broken hearts mended. ++Stephen King

"You're so guilty its disgusting, he's been sneaking underneath your sheets and your hands have been in places that they probably shouldn't go, but don't worry sweetie... because I already know...and this is the last night that you'll be keeping secrets from me."- Taking Back Sunday

It's not that we didn't love each other, it's just love wasn't enough. So I think I have to let go, we have to let go.- Charmed

For a long time I thought that maybe we'd be something more. It just never seemed to work out, you know? So, at a certain point you just gotta face the fact that it's not meant to be.- One Tree Hill


And the sad part is, that no matter what goes on this year, when you come running back to me again, you know I'll be here.- Dawson's Creek

I know I've made a lot of stupid mistakes. But the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most, wouldn't hurt me again.-Dawson's Creek

I bet you never imagined, that one day, you'd look around, and I just wouldn't be there


I like him. But I loved you. I was so in love with you. I let you go because I had to. Because it hurt too much. I needed to be able to look at you and still see this great guy that was trustworthy and understanding. I needed to be able to look at you and see my best friend, not just another person who let me down. I moved on, yes, but that doesn't mean that I've forgotten. And that doesn't mean that I won't be here anymore if you ever want to come back

That night didn't mean anything to you. You're still with her. And it's never going to change. You love her. And I knew you did...yet, I still surrendered myself to your embrace. Devouring every word you said....believing you still loved me, and you regretted being with her. But, it's not true. Because, things haven't changed like you promised. It didn't go from her to me. You stayed with her, and, even though you'll never admit it -- you want to. I'm not even an obstacle. You've broken every promise you've ever made me....why did I think this time would be any different?