Tuesday, May 20, 2008 8:21 PM
i want something to wake up for every morning. it doesnt have to be someone, but id like it to be. it just needs to exist.
i want to stop disappointing people because i want to stop disappointing myself.
i want to stop making friends with the right kind of people who make me feel wrong.
i want to find a passion for anything, anything to keep me going.
i want to be the girl at the end of the movie who does a half smile and knows everything will be fine.
i want total honesty to be easier to achieve.
i want to end my life as myself; not as my friends, not as my family, and not as who they always expected i would be.
i want the world to be worth living without love because i dont think i'll ever find it.
i want equality to exist among everyone. especially prejudiced teenage girls.
i want stress and exhaustion to disappear.
i want to achieve everything they never did.
girl: do you like me?boy: no.girl: what? i mean... why not?boy: think about it for a sec.girl: so.. there's another girl?boy: no baby, i Love you :)you lost the "touch".
she "lost" the feeling.
you [made] her break.
she broke your "heart"
you have two sides to you.
a physical side & and an emotional side.
HER physical side is standing strong
while her emotional side is a
beautiful disaster
There are only 2 known beings that would give their life for you;
Jesus Christ, and an American soldier.
Their only difference is that one died for your soul,
and the other died for your freedom.
Hello Operator, I met a boy today.
Please dial Mr. Heartbreak. Don't
threaten me with what you think I feel.
If you could read my mind,
You would be in tears.
&& THiS iS HOW THE STORY OF A GiRL GOES.
a boy broke her heart.
&& then next day, he called the girl up.
&& asked her if she was okay from the PREViOUS day.
then she said::
'.. oh im just fine. dont feel bad at all.
but you did bring THiS on yourself.
'HELL NO i`M NOT OK!
YOU ONLY RiPPED OUT MY HEART,
SHREDDED iT iNTO PiECES
THREW iT ON THE FLOOR
&& WALKED AWAY FROM iT.
DO YOU REALLY THiNK THAT
ANYONE WOULD BE OK AFTER
SOMETHiNG LiKE THAT?!
you fucking manwhore.'
(i could see myself saying this to someone.. haa)
Too many people get caught up in what could be
instead of appreciating what is. Don`t fall into that trap.
Appreciate what you have & who you have,
cause the future can take it all away from you.
i could actually care less if you hate me.
but if you do,
say it to my face, bitch
Optimism means expecting the best, but confidence means knowing how to handle the worst.
I liked the days when boys were written down on paper listed on your top 5, instead of you carrying them in your heart. When you would brag about how cool your parents were, instead of talking about how they now ruin your lives. When the only reason you didn't want to get out of bed for school was because you were sleepy, & now it's because each day is a struggle. While hide & seek was the coolest game, instead of guys seeing how many girls they can go out with at one time. When you wished upon birthday candles, & now you wish on a boy who is holding your heart. The days when you were just a kid who still had their innocence, & now you're a teenager who knows everything has changed
It's hard when people ask
"whats wrong?".. and you don't have an answer because
the truth is you don't know
never say you've lost a friend, because if a friendship is capable of ending, it never existed.
don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. try not to risk it all; don't stumble; don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold your head high; don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true and be you. do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest and never look back - there is a reason for the future and a reason for the past. love til it hurts; laugh til you cry. and when your life flashes before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome, and most of all, be proud of what you've become.
In the end
they dont give points for getting close
and they dont give points for trying
its all forgotten after its all said and done
all most people care about is the end result
but is the number on the scoreboard really more important
than how it got there?
It means nothing if it was given to you
and it means nothing if you cheated
I know I for one give a shit
if you got close, and if you tried hard
cause anyone can make an easy buck
but it takes pride, heart, and most of all guts....
it takes a better person, a more complete individual
to work your ass of in the face of defeat
to know you might not get anything out of it, and still keep on pushin
and let me tell you, if you do succeed...
if you do end up on top in the end,
it feels a heckuvalot better to do it the hard way
(this was on my ex-best guy friends page a long time ago..)Sometimes, when I'm alone, I lay down in spots you may think of as "random". If you walked in on this you would see me in an awkward position; whether it be sideways with my legs in a scissor pose, a snow angel formation, or maybe even sitting upside down on the couch, I don't know. You would find that my eyes are most likely closed, blocking out the world around me, my tongue loosely grasping my necklace inside my partially open mouth. You may call out to me; I may look, I may not. You could walk away and it will not faze me that you have left, for I do not open my eyes to see who you are or where you go or are going. You feel that this encounter was weird as am I so you think. But in perspective, I am just laying quietly. In reality, I am comfortably day-dreaming of everything that he and I are gonna be.
Nothing in life is certain except for death, so take a deep breath and enjoy all that temporary happiness.
Life isn't all black and white, there is a lot of gray. So why not add some color?
(i loveeeee this one)
As kids we all pledged: "Cross my heart and hope to die."
As teens we pledge on "Break my heart and make me cry."
As adults we didn't pledge, we just nodded with a sigh.
But as friends we pledged: "Don't worry, we're friends until we die."
Girl: I can act.
Friend: No you can't.
Girl: I'm smiling aren't I?
She was the kind of girl who wouldn't dance because she was scared.
She was the kind of girl who wouldn't sing because she thought she couldn't.
She was the kind of girl who ate everything bad because she was bored.
She was the kind of girl who wasn't organized because she was lazy.
She was the kind of girl who got confused too easily because at times she was slow.
He was the kind of boy who didn't care about any of it.
Lets be honest with ourselves.
Few people have common sense.
The world revolves around $$$.
and Music is filled with heartbreak,
hate, sex, and spoken porn.
So why are we being told to live?
Most people have no common
sense to use so they don't know
how to live.
A lot of people are short on cash.
Therefore they can't live too hardcore.
Music already gives us everyone elses
lives through headphones and their
lives are better than ours so why try
to compete?
We are told to live because it will soon
be too late right?
Why don't we just have experiences that
we can remember?
It's more memorable and more likely.
NOTHING can get in the way of experience.
EVERYTHING can get in the way of life.
Shoot spit balls at waiters. Smile at guys down the mall. Ask strangers to befriend you. Dance in a straw hat. Swim in a kiddie pool. Have a Nerf Gun fight. Walk on crutches for fun. Tip your waitress and leave her an extra hundred bucks in Monopoly money. Jump rope backwards. Sing in class. Wear a dress around the house. Alphabetize a friends cd's. Do the hula in your backyard. Swim underwater. Play 'tag' James Bond style. Wave at people as they exit a movie theatre. Do all of this just because you can.
There is a smile on her red face, emotion in her blue eyes, and rips in the knees of her jeans.
The smile is fake. Her face is red from tears.
The blue of her eyes is from the tears and the emotion in them is sadness.
As for the rips in her jeans, thats from where she fell in love so many times and ripped her heart open.
Wanna know the kicker?
Nobody knows it but her...
Draw me a 3 leaf clover and tell me that if I had anymore luck I'd be a leprechaun
so far i've learned that everyday of your life must be lived to the fullest. life is about smiling, laughing & crying. life is about making the most of what you have & what you're given. its about keeping relationships & losing them. life is about falling in love & losing someone you love. life was given to us as a challenge & its not easy but you have to try & meet that challenge & make the most of it while you can cause you dont actually know when it will be your turn to lay down to rest. you only have one shot at life so make sure you take it with both hands & squeeze every little drop out of it you can
You can blurt out any lyric
& I'll blurt out the rest of it
You can say a band name
& I"ll say why they have it
You can name a guitarist
& I'll name bands hes been in
But you ask me to spell microphone
& I'll have to look it up
I wish it was like a retro pop song.
"I want you to want me."
BOOM. end of story.
But it's never like that. Is it?
you were a risk ; you were a huge risk.
and you're the reason i don't take risks anymore
And I want to be there for you
I do but I can't do this anymore.
I can't keep being your second choice
not when you're my first.
Its kind of amazing
how one person can make your day
incredibly perfect
No more funny conversations; all of that's gone
so I go back and look at AIM chat-logs.
Again and again I read over the same lines,
and laugh while I read, but cry at the same time.
LETS WRITE A STORY.
first, there was this girl,
and she really liked this boy.
okay, now you finish
I can't stop thinking about what would have happened?
if we hadn't given up on each other
I flow like H20 ...
so call me AquaFresh
when you reach the end of the rope,
tie a knot, and keep hanging on.
when you remember how hard it is to change yourself, you begin to
understand what little chance we have of
changing others.
don't let it end like this
we've been through worse
this is just a windy day
compared to all the storms that have came our way.
when i was in grade school,
they told me to write down
what i wanted to be when i grew up.
i wrote down happy.
they told me i didn't
understand the assignment;
i told them they didn't understand life.
the girl who seemed unbreakable; brokethe girl who seemed so strong; crumbledthe girl who always laughed it off; cried
& the girl who never stopped trying; quit
God doesn't give you the people you want.
Instead, He gives you the people you need.
To teach you, to hurt you, to love you & to
make you exactly the way you're meant to be
it's not like i wake up and think
"i'm going to start liking someone today..."
it just sorta happens...and i hate it.
because my heart does a horrible job
at picking guys..
It just all slips away so slowly. You don't even notice untill you've lost a lot. And now i'm tired, and I am broke, and I feel stupid and I feel used, and I'm at the end of my little rope, and I am swinging back and forth about you.
here comes the sadness that i miss so much. that lonely aching comes from every touch. i've grown accustomed to the grays & blacks, because they're always coming back. sit down for supper, you won't dine with me or can't you handle seeing all i see. i've grown colorblind to cease my bitching & i've grown to love the pain. & i move to slow & i think too fast & the first rainbow i see will be the last. here comes a boring song with thoughtless rhyme. i know you're sick of me so tell me here because you could have been the one to make it all disappear.
Sorry for the waiting, Sorry to waste your time,
Sorry if I'm not worth it, you don't have to be mine;
Sorry for mistaking something I thought was true,
Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do;
Sorry for my feelings as if they're not enough,
Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff;
Sorry if I'm cramping your lifestyle or getting in your way,
Sorry if I don't say the things you want me to say;
Sorry if I don't measure up to what you want me to be,
Sorry I can't be enough to make you just want me;
Sorry for apologizing, but I don't know what else to do,
Sorry if my dreams only consist of me and you;
Sorry I ever met you, Sorry I'm not enough for you,
I'm Sorry I love you the way I do.
I want to go back to a time when our hearts carried the conversation & our brains jogged behind. When truth wasn't so cryptic, & lies didn't destroy everything we've ever worked towards. Oh, progress is the opposite of "you & me." As we stand together & watch the world pass by, you vanish from my side. I see you run & catch up & my tears sting like acid; the bitterness makes them burn, & I'm afraid even through this I doubt I'll ever learn. They say, "absence makes the heart grow fonder," but I think I like you more when you're here.
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